Not eating unhealthy snacks for three months. I didn’t believe this was even possible for me, for food and sugar had been an addiction of mine for so many years now. But in order to lose 30 kg, I had to overcome this addiction. Not eating these snacks was a necessity to be able to succeed. So I made it a goal.
No. 42: Don’t eat sweet or salty snacks and sweet desserts for a month. Do this three times.
I was clever. I knew doing this three month in a row would actually be impossible. There’s always a birthday in between with a very tasty cake, or someone who surprises you with some delicious home-baked snacks. I wanted to be able to make the choice to eat these. I also wanted not to fall back completely, should I fail at one point. And thirdly, I wanted to get used to the fact that I can eat a bar of chocolate once in a while, but after that go back to eating healthy again. Because that’s probably the most difficult thing of all if you’re a food addict.
On February 12, I completed my first month of refraining from unhealthy snacks and desserts. On April 17, I did it a second time. And I’m proud to say that yesterday I successfully finished my third month of staying away from chocolates, chips and ice cream. Yes! I did it! I actually completed this goal!
And it wasn’t always easy the last month. The hardest part was when I baked Nan Kathai. These are Indian cookies, which I baked on May 29 to be used in our play last weekend. I baked cookies, ones I never had before and I wasn’t allowed to take a bite. That was the hardest thing ever. I mean, who doesn’t want to try out their home-made cookies? Especially right after they’re baked and still taste fresh and maybe even a bit warm.
Yet I didn’t budge. I only had six days left before succeeding this goal. That was a really great motivator. I didn’t want to ruin that. I decided I would save a cookie (in case the actors would decide to eat them all) and stored it in my pantry until today. I hoped the cookie would still be tasty after six days. But if it wouldn’t be, I could still bake new ones, right?
In total, three cookies were left. And today I proudly tasted them for the first time. Obviously I don’t know how they taste when they are fresh, but they still were delicious! I am so proud of myself for staying strong, even with fresh cookies in my kitchen which smelled like heaven.
But what now? Even though these three months have been hard, this was actually the easy part. Right now I did it to complete a goal. A goal that was clearly described. The goal gave me boundaries and motivation. But now that I’ve accomplished it, how am I going to keep myself from walking the wrong path again? I don’t want to go back to binge eating. But I would like to enjoy a nice chocolate mousse or a bowl of chips once in a while. But how often is once in a while? And how will I make sure I won’t do the same the next day, and the day after, and the day after?
I honestly don’t know yet. I’m going to have to make a plan. Maybe I’ll even agree on some sort of a contract with myself. Maybe I will only eat stuff like this on social occasions like birthdays and parties. Or maybe I will plan new months in which I will not eat unhealthy snacks. Or maybe I will limit my intake to a certain amount of days per month. I don’t know. But I know for sure I don’t want to go back to how I was before. I like the new me, the one who has discovered healthy snacks, the one who stays strong with all kinds of delicious temptations around me, the one who does not binge eat anymore.
Can you think of ways how to maintain this healthy lifestyle from now on? Which agreements should I make with myself? All tips are welcome!